Monday, March 2, 2015

Life...titles

It’s absolutely bizarre to me how caught up we as a society are in titles. Are you a mother? Father? Wife? Homemaker? Programmer? Lawyer? It’s one of the first things people ask about you when they meet you. What do you do? What do you do????


I lost my job recently and I’m not sure where to go with it. I was pretty upset at first, because the reason given was not true and I felt made me look bad. My boss actually didn’t say a word to me, and acted quite cowardly about the whole thing. Am I still upset? No. I'm actually amazed at how much better I feel. Not just physically, but emotionally I feel so much better. I didn't realize how negative the environment there had become so I'm looking at it like a blessing in disguise. 

http://nilsolson.com/unforgettable-christmas-eve-blessing/

I'm sleeping better, my headaches have gone away, my family and friends say that I look so much happier and have so much more energy. I don't feel blah all of the time. It's amazing at how much can change in a couple of days! I also met the group I now attend a small group with a woman I met at the company, so maybe there was a divine purpose in it all. That's what a few people have said to me. 

So I'm learning to look at the bright side, look at the positives in this experience? Did I learn a lot about myself through this job? Yes. Did I learn about careers that may interest me with other companies in the future? Yes. Did I gain experience that will help me? Yes. 

But most importantly I think, through this job, through groups there, and through a certain co-worker, I became closer to God, closer to my faith. So maybe that was the purpose of being there. My faith has exploded ten fold and I love every minute of it. The hard, the scary, the trying, the good, the beautiful. And the impact it's having on my son. Grace. Amen.

I"m using these unemployed moments as my Fringe hours (if you haven't read the book and you feel overbooked, please do!) I'm catching up on lots of things I've needed to do for a while, but hadn't gotten around to doing. Books to be read, car stuff to take care of, home stuff to do. Family time to cherish. Trails to hike!






4 comments:

  1. i love this! While I have not been laid off, I am basically quitting my job to pursue the journey God has asked me to follow. Leaving a successful career to become a wife and stepmom had me scared at first but now I'm looking forward to it. We'll see as June gets closer if this will continue...lol. But people tell me I seem happy and more at peace with my decision. It is amazing how one can not realize when a job is being too much emotionally and even physically.

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    1. It really is amazing how much an environment can impact you, even when you are gone from it for the day! I'm so glad you are happy and following the journey God has led to you.

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  2. I also left a job that, at first I thought was my dream job, but when there was a change in management, it to totally changed everything! I was so stressed that if I didn't leave, I think I might have literally had a mental breakdown! God opened and closed many doors since then, but now I have a job that is even better than the first job and I even have some community connection with the old business. The management there when I left, eventually retired and I get along well with the new staff. God seems to work everything out in His time!

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    1. I was close to a mental breakdown. The environment was badly impacting my health as well (though I didn't totally realize that until I walked out of the doors!) God definitely has a plan for why things work out the way they do, even if we don't understand it! Like you, I loved the job at first and had no intentions on leaving it but He had bigger plans for me.

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