It’s absolutely bizarre to me how caught up we as a society are in titles. Are you a mother? Father? Wife? Homemaker? Programmer? Lawyer? It’s one of the first things people ask about you when they meet you. What do you do? What do you do????
I lost my job recently and I’m not sure where to go with it. I was pretty upset at first, because the reason given was not true and I felt made me look bad. My boss actually didn’t say a word to me, and acted quite cowardly about the whole thing. Am I still upset? No. I'm actually amazed at how much better I feel. Not just physically, but emotionally I feel so much better. I didn't realize how negative the environment there had become so I'm looking at it like a blessing in disguise.
I'm sleeping better, my headaches have gone away, my family and friends say that I look so much happier and have so much more energy. I don't feel blah all of the time. It's amazing at how much can change in a couple of days! I also met the group I now attend a small group with a woman I met at the company, so maybe there was a divine purpose in it all. That's what a few people have said to me.
So I'm learning to look at the bright side, look at the positives in this experience? Did I learn a lot about myself through this job? Yes. Did I learn about careers that may interest me with other companies in the future? Yes. Did I gain experience that will help me? Yes.
But most importantly I think, through this job, through groups there, and through a certain co-worker, I became closer to God, closer to my faith. So maybe that was the purpose of being there. My faith has exploded ten fold and I love every minute of it. The hard, the scary, the trying, the good, the beautiful. And the impact it's having on my son. Grace. Amen.
I"m using these unemployed moments as my Fringe hours (if you haven't read the book and you feel overbooked, please do!) I'm catching up on lots of things I've needed to do for a while, but hadn't gotten around to doing. Books to be read, car stuff to take care of, home stuff to do. Family time to cherish. Trails to hike!